by michelle on November 18, 2014 · 1 comment

The hardest part, so far, of switching to this “having a job” thing has been dealing with the feelings that someone else is getting the best of my kid every day.

Jonas is an awesome kid. Sure, he drives me crazy, but he’s an awesome kid. He is funny and kind. He’s fun to play with. He’s fun to read a story with. He’s fun to just hang out with. But when I only see him from 6ish to 8ish every night, I’m not getting the fun and kind parts. I’m getting the tired, overstimulated, grumpy parts of my kid. I know why he fights bedtime every night – he tells me every morning on the way to school. He says that his school is ok, but it’s too long to be away from his parents every day, and that he misses just hanging out at home with me. I miss that, too. I miss it a LOT.

So, I know that school is GOOD for Jonas. Playing with other kids is good for Jonas. He tells me he likes doing centers with his friends, and I know his teachers are invested in him and read lots of stories every day, and they talk about letters and sounds and do music. It’s GOOD. But by the time I see him, he’s just done and I just miss having him around.

For example, today I am working 9 a.m. – 8 p.m. It’s a little crazy, but the library is only open a total of 50 hours a week, and one of those days is Saturday from 9-2. So the hours have to balance out somewhere to get to 40. Anyway. Most Tuesdays I won’t get home until 8:30 or 8:45. He’s usually in bed by the time I get home. It’s HARD.  I just really miss my kid.

I also miss just being around my house. I like my house. It’s a nice house. It’s starting to feel like “our” house, with some new furniture and paint I picked out, and a little bit of decorating. But I feel like I’m just there to sleep. I know that’s not the case – that most people have jobs and work their days and come home around 6 and that’s just how it is. But it’s SO different from anything I’ve ever done before. Sure, when I was in undergrad and working 2 or 3 jobs, I was basically only home to sleep. There were entire semesters when I’d leave the house by 8 and not get home until 1a.m. Sleep. Get up. Do it again. But it’s different now. I just – am missing my old way of life and the adjustment period is more difficult than I expected.


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So, what’s up?

by michelle on October 16, 2014 · 1 comment


Let’s talk a little about life!

Here’s what’s up: I began work on my master’s in Library and Information Science last fall.

I started my first library job this week. Today is my second day, and I’m still doing things like getting familiar with the library website and what databases they have to offer, learning where everything is in the library, how to check out books for people, and general library things. It’s been fun so far, but it’s only day 2. So Who knows. My work computer doesn’t connect to the internet yet, and it’s a windows computer, and I don’t even know if I still know how to use a non-mac computer. I’ve been a mac user for a decade.

Everyone has been so nice. The library is quiet, and in a small town. My job is going to be coming up with new adult programming – book groups and what not. I’ve been asked to try to find ways to engage younger adults as the current book groups are for blue-hairs. So, that’s exciting. I’m thinking maybe a “mom’s night out” book group, and read a book that will appeal to moms of whatever age, but probably of younger kids. Who knows. The world is apparently my oyster.

I’m enjoying the process of getting ready in the mornings, but I guess it’s going to take more than 2 days to get accustomed to doing more than just the bare minimum. Who knows how long it will take.

Last night, I drove home, about a 35 minute drive, ate some dinner that Chris brought home for me (queso!), put Jonas to bed, and then went to bed myself. My clock was cooked. I have a feeling that will be the case tonight as well, because until I am used to all of this, I don’t see much else being done at home. Oye.

Transitioning to this working and momming stuff is going well so far, except when Jonas says “It’s hard to be away from your mommy and daddy all day.” And I say “I know, but this is good for all of us.” And then he says “I’ll just have to think about the good times.” And then I have to force myself not to cry so that I don’t wash all my mascara away.

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A few useless tidbits, and why kids are jerks when they have ear infections.

January 29, 2014

The semester started late last week, and it’s clear that it’s going to be a lot more serious than last semester. I’m learning a boat load of new terminology and methodologies. My classes are titled “Introduction to Information Retrieval” and “Introduction to Instructional Design”. I didn’t even understand half of the words in the title [...]

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These are my heart songs

November 7, 2013

Bonus points for recognizing the lyric reference in the title. Ginger had a nice prompt the other day, about your top 10 life songs. This is HARD. HARD HARD HARD because music was my lifeline through adolescence, and I associate certain songs, sometimes entire albums, and in one case, the entirety of one band’s music [...]

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Look at this stuff, isn’t it neat?

September 12, 2013

Earlier today, there was some awesome conversation happening on twitter and also on Not Raising Brats about the rerelease of The Little Mermaid and how Michelle was hesitant to take her daughters to see it because Ariel is not exactly a great role model. She makes a VERY valid point – Ariel gives up her voice [...]

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Brain dump regarding that post that went viral today.

September 4, 2013

This will be a brain dump. And probably not the most well written thing I’ve ever produced, either. When I was a teenager, I went without a bra as much as I possibily could. I hated bras. They were confining. They weren’t comfortable. And I identified with hippies and liberation and decided that since I [...]

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Life updates

July 30, 2013

So, there’s a lot going on in my life right now. Really there’s too much for one post, but here it is! Class starts soon. I’m sort of nervous tummy about class starting. Graduate school! I love school. I hope I continue to love school during grad school.   Jonas turns 3 about the same [...]

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It really goes by so fast.

May 16, 2013

Today was the last day of Jonas’s first year of preschool. I realize that it was just a little two day a week program, but, I say this like all parents, time is going so fast. When he was a tiny baby, I felt like time stood still. And when people said, “it goes by [...]

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My most favorite makeup type products right now

April 14, 2013

Clinique Super City Block Sheer – This product was discontinued for awhile, and my friend Alex and I cried a little. She introduced me to this product years ago, and it was perfect. It’s basically just a nice face sunscreen. It’s slightly tinted and evens out my skin-tone, like a tinted moisturizer. But it’s really [...]

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Easy avocado pasta sauce – Toddler Eats!

April 12, 2013

I saw someone mention an avocado “alfredo” sauce on twitter a while ago, and the idea stuck with me. I did a search one day when I had a ripe avocado on hand, and the first google hit was from a big favorite, Oh She Glows. I’ve tried a few recipes from there and have [...]

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